another one am afraid

Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now? Well Maybe James :o)

Who was your last text from? Mr Jamie James

Anything you would change about your life right now? A cupple of things but thats life it is never perfect.

What is your current mood? Lonlyness boredness and tiredness

Do you mind sleeping on the floor? Nopppe I have slept on de kitchen floor before when I was younger I would just randomly lay on floors

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? Well if not then I will cry

Do you get distracted easily? Only When James is talking about Gas bills and such likes

Do you listen to your friend's advice when they give it to you? If I had any

Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? I like both I like Feeling close to some one but I like Having all the space :o)

What's something you're excited about right now? Hoilday, Seeing James, Seeing Sam having some fun

Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle? Well if it wasnt kissing then I dont know what it was


Was your last kiss drunk or sober? Since I dont drink.....

How many people do you truly trust? 2 people

When was the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends? Yesterday

Do you use an alarm clock? Only if I have to be up early

What were you doing at 5 in the morning? Trying to get some sleep

When will you kiss the last person you kissed? Tuesday

Ever liked someone that you didn't think you stood a chance with? Yes James

Is someone on your mind right now? There are always people on my mind

Would you ever change for a boy/girl? you should never change for any one

How do you feel about abortions? Well on learning that my mum thought about getting rid of me because the doctors told her that I will have a lot of problems but i guess it depends on the situation

Are you a cuddler? Yes indeedy

Did you hug or kiss anyone today? Yes I hugged my Mummy before she left

Was the last person you kissed a good kisser? Hmmmm Well I kissed my mum on the cheeck but the last person i proper kissed was Jamie so Yes

What makes you mad? Not alot really

Have you ever had a song written about you? Yup at some time or another

If your best friend was being cheated on, would you tell them?I dont know Because Sam would probs never believe me

To whom did you last give the finger to? Moi Never....


Who were you last in a car with? James yesterday

Is there anyone you trust who you shouldn't? you shouldnt really trust any one but your self that way they cant use it against you

When was the last time you hugged someone? Errrm about 3:00 oclock (today)

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week? Yup


Do you think you're old? Sometimes

Are you a jealous person? Nope

What are you listening to? Thomas Snoring

Do you wear contacts? Nope just a four eyed person...(glasses)

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Always

You see a shooting star, do you make a wish? I used to and I used to pray that they would keep my dad Safe (sad I know)

Are you a morning person or a night person? Depends if i got a good night sleep then am great in the morning but if its late at night and am all sleepy then you want get much out of me but am a bit of both a guess

Last person you wrote a note to? Errrmmm Jamie

If you could move somewhere else, would you? France, Japan, Canada or anywhere that my famiy would be happy

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime? 3

What were the last words you said to your Dad? Cant remember Maybe good bye Love you

What was the first thing you did when you woke up? Ermmm Checked to see if Thomas had weeded in my shower ha

Do you want to get married and have children one day? Well I love Jamie more than anyone but Marriage is just a fancey do for a devoice but maybe one day


Who did you spend most of your summer with? Jamie and Samaul

What's most stressing right now? Ermmm

Do you like anyone right now? Yes I like my mum I like my Grandparents I like my Cat I like my brothers but if i fancey any one then yes .

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward? Depends ....


whats the last thing you said out loud ? Thomas J you best not poo in my shower ha

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Never

Is there someone you want to keep in your life? Yes My Mum my Grandparents my brothers and Jamie ooooo and Tom Maybe Sam

Is there someone you want out of your life for good? Errrmmmm

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them? I dont know you have to feel safe with the person you love thats part of trust....

Where did you get your last bruise from? walking in to a soild pine box

Are you shy? Yes sometimes

Are you close with your siblings? Not really

Would you rather be the heartbroken or the heart breaker? Heartbroken am to nice to be a heart breaker but both bring pain

Have you ever been heart broken? Yes by the one person you least expect


How did you feel when you woke up today? Tired as didnt get much sleep last night

Do you believe in love? Well I am in love and I am loved but I always feel that one day Jamie will wake up and relise he doesnt love me so Yes there is love but i belive that with love comes alot of pain

Current mood? tired

Are you too forgiving? Yes I am not so much a push over as i used to be thoe

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years? I dont know I dont know what will happen tomorow

Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them? yes

Are you open about your feelings or closed off? Its best to keep feelings inside that way you cant get hurt but you shoud let a few things out otherwise you will explode

Think of the last person you told "I love you" to, did you mean it? Yes of course

Do you think two people can last forever? I would like to think Jamie and me will last forever but in reailty i dont think they can

Feel like talking to someone that you haven't in a while? Ermmm Yes

Do you care what people think about you? Not really take me as you find me

How's your heart lately? Ermm Fine i think

Do you consider yourself creative? Very much so I have been told often that i have a great imagination

Do you wanna see somebody right now? Yes of course

Do you wish someone would call or text you right now? I dont really mind

Do you like surprises? Yes

Have you ever liked someone older than you? Yes Jamie is older than me he is 25 next year and i am 22

Think of the person who's hurt you the most in the past year, who is it? The one person who should never hurt you the most

What makes you not be able to sleep? alot of things

Ha well that took a time but oh well sorry its not a proper blog but no one is reading this any ways so who cares Byes

Sam is back but its strange......

Well Like I have said I couldnt wait for Sam to get back beacuse I missed him lots and lots but I went to see him on wednesday and its was diffrent somehow like I wasnt really that botherd that he was back like I didnt really want to hang out with him could we have finaly grown apart after 19 years? I hope not But all the time i was with him I just wanted to go back to Jamies and see him Sam and Me are bestfriends but there wasnt that spark that we have always had we have always bonced of each other had lots of fun but that day there was nothing there was no excitment that he was back or no feeling that I had missed him It was just emptyness we spoke but I couldnt really botherd if am honest maybe its just been to long? who knows.......bye

When your folks try to be "Cool"

Well Today My Mum said to me "I want to buy that Scouting for boys Album I saw it in HMV but the que was to big I didnt want to wait"
Trying to sound cool when I do believe it is Scouting for girls ha
Another time I went to see my Dad in Scottland and my Dad started doing the Westside sign then said "I am just like the Wedge wood" I laughed and Said "It's Westwood Wedge wood makes orniments and things" ha Don't they just make you laugh My mum once said I would like to go and see Take That Live but I didnt like there last album but there new one must be good... They only have one Album out!!!....
What do your parents do to make you laugh?

Like I said I do have Photos but the Movie night didnt happen but I have photos i have taken over the week Bye for now.......!

Well I do not have much to talk about today if am honest Jamie has added a hiddous photo of me to his myspace and will not take it off :o( It is truly gross.... Well not much as happend Adam and Me are having a Movie night on saturday I dont get to see him often as he works alot so we like to hang out every cupple of months to catch up it will be and all night movie fest and Pizza will have to get some photo's..... Jamie has next week off so we are going to meadowhall for the day..... also he brought an ioning board the otherday so now i can do all his ioning cheecky begger... Well next time I do one off this I should have some photos :o) bye bye

Ice Creme and legs

Well Friday Night came and I heard outside " I'm forever blowing bubbles pretty bubbles in the air" The ice creme van was here in a quite leafy cul-des-sac.. So I though since it was Friday I would treat my self to one and I did a 99 well its now a a pound... and i must say it was rather yummy even if i did feel a little sick afterwords ha.





Well me and Jamie went out for a drink before he went to work and i was taking photos and accidently while trying to take a photo of Jamie and me got one of our knees ha........
anyways I will be of maybe have more to say another day.....Bye...

Week in photos and vidoes :o)

Stuff I have Brought this week :o)

Tommykins Sleeping :o)


All this photos are taken as I saw my week....

Did anything brighten up your day today? Well considering that the day hasnt happend yet so no not yet

How are you feeling at this exact moment? Like I need a bath/Shower and Excitment because in Jan I might be going back to Chamonix with Jamie :o)

Are you someone who worries too often? Yes alot it's not good

Do you ever wonder how other people see you? Somtimes but then I just think why care

Are you the type of person who likes to be out or home? Well considering I am never at Home any more always at Jamies... But i like a bit of both

What time do you normally go to bed? When I am tired could be 10 could be 2 in the morn

Has anyone ever said i love you to you and not meant it? Yup Yup Yup

Who did you last talk to in person besides your family? Jamie :o)

Last phone call? Jamie I think

What are some things that you have to have everywhere you go? The Usal Touch,Phone,Money ETC

There anybody that you trust 100%? well 99.9% Ha no Sam I would trust him with my life and Jamie I would trust him with it too

Are you tired right now? Not really

Do you chew on your straws? Yes i do haha am such a kid

Have you ever been called a tease? Yes many times ( by Jamie)

Where did you go today? Well am going to town havent been yet tho as its only 8 in the morn

What should you be doing right now? Ermmm Getting washed

In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? Listener I learn alot that way

How often do you read books? Not as often as I should Last book I read was We need to talk about Kevin.

Do you think more about the past, present, or future? Both

When was the last time you were at Church? Aplril for a funral :o(

Do you have an "ex box" with pics and letters from past lovers? Sorta i have a shoe box full of letter and stuff that people have givin me not just an ex but friends as well

A gift someone bought for you? Ermmmm Jamie Brought my tea yesterday?

Are you friends with more boys or girl? boys

What are your plans for tomorrow? Depends see how i feel when I get up

Do you miss the way things used to be? Yes it was so easy back then but I do love how it is right now if it could be back in the day but i was with Jamie back then then it would be perfect!

What was your last conversation on the phone about? Ermmmm Jamie telling me he had finished work early so he will come and pick me up early.....

Do you miss any one? Yes Samwise :o(

Doyou like your hair? No I wish it would grow

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be? No I dont think so

Have you held hands with anyone in the past three days? Yup not for very long thoe

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? I hope not but yes am sure some one properly does.... but the people that know me recon I have a heart of gold :oP

Do you regret doing anything this week? Ermmm *thinking* I dont think i spilt any pints so no

Are you growing apart from someone close? I blumming hope not

Anything sore on your body? My Knee it is all swollen

Do you think things will change in the next few months? They always are but as long as they dont in a bad way

Has anything disappointed you today? Yes its taken me so long to get a bath/shower

If you could go to any place right now, where would you go? Errmmm I would grab Jamie and we would be in Chamonix right now

Are you a patient person? yes unless its somthing i am really excited about then I am not

What do you do when you're nervous? eat my lips

.Where were you Saturday night? At Jamie's

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? yes indeedy

Have you ever liked someone older than you? Well Jamies Older so yes :o)

What is the last thing you said out loud? Well I havent spoken today so last night when i was talking to Tom

areyou ticklish? Only in some places but not really

Are you someone's best friend? I hope so Becayse Sam's my best friend

Who has your myspace password? Yup Sam and Jamie

Are you a jealous person? Nope

Whose bed did you sleep in last? Mine

Does anyone like you right now? Well i they dont its a wast them being my boyfriend ha....

Unhappiness

Unhappiness it has a way of creeping up on when you least expected you could be on top of the world and everything is going right for you but then you suddernly feel very unhappy and Want to cry... But you cant explain why..... Alot of people deal with unhappiness diffrently.... I once had a friend who used to cut there arms with glass at the time I was only a teenager 16 so I didnt fully understand what they were doing but it is only know I am 22 i relise that they were hurting them selfs they seemed bubbly bright and HAPPY but that was the key word HAPPY because they were clearly not and did not know how to show this so knowing they would get attention and it worked because when they told me because I saw the marks on there arm I told them they had to stop and they were being stupid because it could kill them.....Now thoe being 22 as well they did stop and as fare as i am aware they dont do it still... as for HAPPY I do not know if they are HAPPY They Seem bubbly and Bright when I see them but they seemed bubbly and Bright 6 years ago.......
Many people find it hard to say that they are unhappy out of fear that the person they tell will say somthing along the lines of " You unhappy what have you got to be unhappy about?" and in some server cases when the person has commited suicide Does the person then stand up and say "well he did say he was unhappy"
A person must be truely unhappy with them selfs if they can do this.....
But as I said people deal with unhappiness diffrently for my mum she changes things... For me I write....and for others well I dont know.... When some one is truly unhappy it sometimes helps to talk to somone that you dont know so well or at all..... its not always best to keep it in because sometime you will explode not like a bomb but emotionaly
well again I am going bye bye.....

Belonging

Belonging are they just objects or can there ever be more to it than that?........
Today my mum is throwing alot of things away because she cant bother looking at them any more It's her way of saying she is unhappy...So she asked me to go through a box of my stuff and get rid of stuff I dont want and keep what i do So i do that and keep not very much but its all stuff I want and things that mean somthing..... But no I am not aloud to keep any of it because she cant be botherd with it.... and for some reason i have a deep restenment for that fact that she can keep her "junk" but I cant keep mine......Over the years alot of my stuff has been thrown away with out my constent so I come to he conculsion of Why bother asking me when your just going to throw it away anyways?
Do we get to attached to "stuff" and miss what the real problems is or whats really going on?

Like My mum through away myfolder full of my old college work and I was putting things in the bin and I noticed it so i got it out thinking I will have alook at what i did back then and Noticed that all my Quilfication certifcates where in there all my GCSE's etc...........

Like I had a shoe box full of all my photographs i have taken over the years she through the box away and put all my photos somewhere else and i am not aloud to keep them in my room anymore...... Its perthetic but then I think there just photos I have my memories...

Well thats my rant over with bye bye..........

Happiness

Happiness Jamie and Me we were talking today about happiness and we desided that bassed on our own experince that no one is 100% happy all the time and I think he right, Am happy but I remember the day when I was first 100% Happy I was in town in this club that has pool tables (not cue world) and I was with some one they were showing me how to play pool and for a brife moment it felt right it felt like this was how it was meant to be funnily thoe that person did a terrible thing to me not to long after but yeah that was the moment i first felt 100% happy... Its little things that can make a person so happy.. Like with that man Tony i spoke about in a last blog he was so happy and made up when Jamie gave him a cuepon to get 30p of a beer alsorts of thinks make people happy and if you where to ask each person what made them 100% happy i wonder if they could all tell you and i wonder if that it is big reasons or small reasons like mine and like Tony.... If anyone reads this let me know and it has also givin me an idea... bye bye

BTW I relise that I have made a spelling mistake in the last video.....

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I wont talk about what has peed me of incase the person reads this so yes it is a person and it takes alot to wind me up because am such a cool and laid back person but my GOSH!!!!!........... Anyways that my little rant all over with..... I went in to town today YAY! on my tod NOO! I bumped in to Andy and his girlfriend but they didnt stay long they wanted to go and shop.... So anyways I had to be somewhere at 3:25 so when I had finished there I went back to town and missed the bus by just 5 secs so I had wait and hour for the next one but it was 30 mins late and the wind was picking up so I was frozen by the time the bus got there because i didnt expect me to be out that late so all i had one was my vest top tshirt and cardie but the wind picked up and it was blumy cold......... and top it off when i got on the bus i got of to early because I couldnt really see i thought i was getting off at the right stop but i got of 2 stops before i needed to so i got off 10 mins before my house its been one of thoes days anywho that is it.......... so bye bye...

Divorce

Last Night while reading over some old emails an old friend had put that there worst point in there life was when they were 14 and there parents where getting a divorce and they saw there farther cry for the first time... Well I honestly think somthing like that would mess with a young teenages head... I do not believe this thing where if you live in a one parent family you are more likely to commit crimes, But i do believe that divorce can mess with a childs mind forutnatly I havent really had to deal with this has my perants spilt when I was a young age so for most of my life it has been my Mum my two older brothers and Me So there never was that typical family unit of Mum ,Dad and Children. But when I was 16 my mum got remarried but even then there wasnt a family unit it was My Mum her Husband then the kids and that broke down after a 18 months then came the divorce..... I understand how people can get messed up with this its must be harder to have to deal with as you get older because your mum and Dad have always been Mum and Dad a family unit then one day its Mum then Dad two diffrent people living two diffrent lives... My Brothers there Dad left when they where 3 and 4 so again they where young but it did effect them because for all that time it was Mummy, Daddy and them two Now it was Mummy and them two............. It happens more and more this days alot of children are being brought up with a single parent... but alot of children blame them selfs for the family unit being broken down and yes divorce does mess with a childs head but what is worse divorce or constant fighting....... as a person who has seen both I would off chossen divorce anyday becasue its hard as my friend said to see a parent so upset because someone else has hurt them......
I look at my friends who have parents who have been togather for 25 plus years and think well if there parents ever do divorce how hard must it be for them or even knowing the only reason your parents are still one is because of you and that as soon as your grow and move on then they will be people that must be hard to deal with...... By any means I am not comdeming single familys as I grew up in one and my Mum did a fanstastic job with us we have grown up to be successful well mannerd people ( my spelling has nothing to do with my mum tho ha) And as a single parent she always made sure we didnt go with out and we will always Love her for everything she has done for us and for being there....

Grimsby

Why do we live in GY why is it so Gay where ppl just lay
in the middle of the road thats GY but just dont ask me why
as i do not know coz am not one off ur hoe's PPl drive rnd in
stupid cars thinking there all hard with there fake Burberry
and lots off G that the perfect GY and poo on the floor and that knock at ur door was the poilce coming to take you away for the stuff
that you knicked from the old lady next door but what was
it for to pay you hore or to pay for drugs that you keep in a
mug in your bottem draw with your Alchole PPl out on the
drink but realy they stink Pervy men looking at young
Girls all happens in GY but still if you asked me why
i wouldnt have a clue coz am only haveing my father
kid and i think ill call him Sid but thats coz i live in GY
and most the ppl here are interbread coz thats there style
and i live here with out any fear i wish i did but am just a
stupid kid on my own the Town is full of Chavs and unormal
ppl that havnt a clue coz they left school at 13 and had babies
with there fathers or there brothers not there mothers they
just watched! So I advise you to move here soon, as soon as you possibel can



Love

The Stars are falling from
the skys falling right in
to your eyes.
the flowers soft as your
sweet skin the
smell of roses from with in
the cheap champian soon
wears of as with the
clothes that come of
tears role down her brave
face as she longs for
his sweet embrace
the pain begings to
build inside this hurting
she wish would die
the price of love
as yet to be known but
she sits and waits
hopeing to go home
(c) Of Kate

Hate

I hate you you hate me thats the way its always gonna be if u change then that is fine just dont come knocking on my arss if u die dont expect a tear from my eye coz I hate u and u hate me thats the way its always gotta be friends wot the hell how can that be when we are total enemies I hate u u hate me thats they way its gonna be sorry mother I didnt mean to shoot the bullet in his arss but I hate him and he hates me and like I sed that how it has to be no love no care for that guy with the long hair but then I found out it was all a lie I hate him he loved me.
(c) Kate

Spot light

The spot light on me again so bright the light on me stop the sound the voice they repeat over and over telling me to move telling me to run as fast as I can away from this town but all I can do is sit in the corner and rock back and forth like a nodding dog not able to stop. The people move round me as if am invisible but am screaming so loud so so loud why wont they listen the sun is going down still I hear not sound. The voices from with in they carry on this thing but they will not stop.
(c) Kate



The Spot light on me but am so tired and so weak i am not a dancing monkey but a person with feet as i try to stand and try to listen i paint on this smile for the world to glisten if only they knew that the person was me so unhappy and loathed bothersonbe leave me alone i cry cant you see I dont want to do this no more let me be screaming am screaming someone please hear I am not prefomoring animal you see at the zoo I am a human being life i grow i have feeling and emotions pains that wont go if there is only one way you will hear me its is now today as i stand on top of this building whileing away people looking OMG LOOK UP THERE THAT WOMEN IS GOING TO JUMP DO I RECONISE HER its me you fools with out the painted smile the person who laughs and giggles for miles but the real me is here broken and smashed wanting only you to notice me and tell me its alright tell me that i belong here there is more to life than this but you didnt have the guts to show you didnt relise it was me so when the crowed let out a sigh I jump a mile high am flying now as free as can be like a bird with wind i am enjoying this I love it true please dont let this be it for me and for you.

My Art work ha :oP

Scray Spider

SO Yeah I was about to walk down the stairs when there is was lurking on the top step in the corner trying as always to get me unaware and it did..... So I called my Mummy to come and get it for me " Mum! Mum! Mum! Mum! Mum! Mum!" " What?" " Quick! Quick! Quick!" and with one hand she picked up the big spider as shown in my fablous drawing and took it outside....! Why do they always attack when you least expected like the other week I was walking down the stairs at night happy as can be when i got to to the bottem step and there is was bigger than my hand but no mother this time i was on my tod So i got Kims shoe ( my mums boyfriend) and placed it on top off the spider as so i couldnt see it and it couldnt move but then what i couldnt go back up the stairs incase it grab my leg and tried to take me away to some scary spider town to eat me........ So with one leap i leapt over the shoe ran upstairs in to my bed room and shut the door.... I survied this time but there is always next time.....!

Well Well I find my self back again.... Not alot has happend tbh Jamie Et Moi Went out On tuesday night in to town Where upon Mr Jamie Split a full pint all down my top and trouses making it look like I had weed my self it was all over my bum and from my front bottem down both legs haha...... We met a Guy Called Tony Who Jamie gave a token to go he got 30p of a pint and he was so greatfull because he had missed his train home so he came and talked to us and told us alot of rude and dirty jokes haha Jamie was drunk so didnt really remember much tomoz it was all good fun Then weds night we did naff all and today we went out for lunch good stuff Anyhow I am going bye bye..............

I was going to try and right a blog with out saying anything about Jamie as i talk about him way to much I am obsessed but I took this photo tonight he has just got out of bed he had a nap before he had to go to work and i thought it was quite good look of shock on his face and his hair :oP proper bed head :oP

Well i Got at home about 10:10pm tonight..... Well about a month ago all my hair ended up short just up above my shoulder but am pleased to annoce that it is growing back! YAY!! I might get my lovely long hair back! YAY! but am going to get it trimmed tomorow :o) I am going to see Andy on tuesday for a few hours will be nice He is getting married in June next year!!! well a month now till Sam is back and i cant wait I really can't I have missed him something rotten I have lots of news for him :o) anyways its 1:02 in the morning so bed times me thinks so bye bye.....

Well I dont think i have told you this little story yet but the other day in town Jamie and me where eating and a wasp came to my neck so i droped my food and legged it Jamie gave me a look as if he didnt expected any diffrent from me and all the people around were like OMG she is wired So i picked my food up and put it in the bin and casual walked of like nothing had happend hehe..... Am so cool its unreal hehe

Jamie Fell out with me last night and I walked out but I came back because as soon as i left i was shacking like mad because i was so upset i didnt want to loss him and he appolised to me and he sent me a message after he droped me of tonight telling me I mean the world to him *I mean the world to some one!* Its crazy it really is Its amazing that one person likes me so much am not use to it tbh but its great..... ♥ I know i ramble on about him in just about every blog but am not used to a guy loving me or thinking and worth alot its a great feeling ♣

anyways bye bye.....

Dumb Old Kate....

Well I slept at Jamie's last night and today we went shopping..... On the way home we stoped of at the pub and Jamie had a pint When we sat down I asked him if he honestly thinks that I am dumb I had been thinking about it while we were shopping... I know that I come out with some right dumb stuff but i mean what i come out with they are honest qustions but Jamie said he honestly doesnt think that I am dumb only somtimes ha... Oh well.... I think i have eaten somthing bad because I have been feeling sick latley Oh i dont know Hey.... How strange is the human body?....... Any ways am i supper tired so bye bye..

Add on to toilet blog

I forgot to add to the last blog while we were in town heading back to Jamie's Car we saw and old couple maybe in there 80's and i desided that they were Jamie and I when we grow old as the man wasnt touching his wife or making it look like they were togather he even ran infront just so he could get past the tree and didnt have to let her past they didnt really talk either it was like they were togather but they were'nt so to say but when we headed off I saw them talking haha but yeah I told Jamie he was unfectionante ( I cant spell) Oh well its all good ne ways that it bye.....

11:30pm Toilet blog...!

well Jamie Came round for tea and i must say he looked very nice witch is unusal he never puts that much effort in for me haha :oP But it was ok afterwords we went back to his and i stayed for 2 days :o) was good we went in to town on thursday I went looking for a DVD and could'nt find it so cried (not really but nearly i really wanted it) So i just ended up buying a hair brush because mine broke and some shampoo get in well excting... Jamie brought a Chair a dust pan and brush and a trowl he has this thing that everything he buys has to add up to an even number so if he buys stuff it either has to add up to 5 pound or 10 pound etc it's well funny I always take the mick outta him it is just so easy to be honest well he gives as good as he gets so its all good..... Well today I havent done much..... talked to Tom for a bit... Oh the other day I was taking this important phone call and Tom kept licking my arm and i couldnt tell him to stop or nething or move him and i had to try not to laugh silly cat anyways an offski bye.........

Haha Chav's..... Well today I have giving TommyKins a bath funny stuff he looked like a little drowned rat bless..... Well I went out for tea with Jamie last night and he is coming here tomorow night for tea....... Ooo and old friend from School recons that Jamie looks like a scally hehe a scally any ways not much else to report so byebye..........

Well I am sat at Jamie's house he left for work 45mins ago So I am sat watching Only Fools and Horses Good Stuff.... Its going to be a long night So maybe more of these to come......Well today i spent most of it at my Grandparents just helping them out....... Jamie has been calling me mardy all evening just because i havent been as talkativ (right) as normal but i wasnt mardy just because i didnt feel like talking doesnt mean a thing........ Well I have been thinking about Sam today and how i will have to servive without him till october :o( Dont get me wrong I love Jamie to bits but when he is at work or am not with him I usally hang around with Sam but I cant till he gets back but as long as he is happy with his wife thats all that matters really....... I feel a bit sick at the moment TBH :o(...... Also if any one is reading my Ramberlings could they recomend a really good video editing softwear? I have P. Studios but I would like somthing else if am honest..... any ways am going..

Oh My What Does she think she looks like?

Well It is now Thursday So that means the BBQ was 3 days ago! Well when Jamie picked me up we went to his house to drop my stuff off at his and i made some whitty comment about the fact his jeans were divorced from his shoes.....But in the prosses of dropping my stuff off I left my Video cam in my bag OH NO!! I relised when I got to Jamie's parents house but by then it was too late..... It was a good evening I only took one photo of Jamie ha....... The food was good the chat was good the drink was good......
Well afterwords we droped Jamies Uncle and Aunty off and we went straight back to Jamie's and watched a bit of TV I worried Jamie abit tho I couldnt stop coughing and was making a sound like i couldnt get air in and he thought I was dieing so he kept looking at me to make sure i was ok (bless him) But I lived to tell the tale so its all good..... Then Yesterday Wednesday Jamie picked me up at 12 and we went to town Jamie brought some new shoes... then we went to the supermarket.... and at 6 we went to a Curry Night was cool......
by Now I am not even sure that people read my ramberlings Oh well I will still carry on because in years to come it would be good to see what a geek I am... The other day this kid said somthing to me along the lanes of "well your a more mature women" I was like what thats somthing you say to some one in there 40's not some one who is 22 lol......
Well today Thursday.... I went to the hospital.... then went to my Grandparents..... thinking about it i best text Jamie and tell him i am not staying there now ha oh well anyways i best be off I still havent got my cam to work with my laptop if any one does happen to stubble across my ramblings and knows as to why it want work please let me know :o) take care....

I am such a losser..

Well today I went shopping the food kind and I returned home with 4 Toilet rolls, Milk,Orange juice,Croquets and a meat pie oooo also some funnyshap pasta yay! But forgot the to get the main thing I went there for.... Well tomorow Jamie Is coming for me at 1 then at 2 we are going to his parents house for a BBQ lets hope the weather stays nice! so that will be a bit of an all nighter i guess I shall be taking my vid cam and my digi cam so i will have photos on here no dout..... Well I shall hopfuly be seeing Andy this week and we shall film somthing funny to put on youtube not that my laptop is accepting my cam yet I recon that my Cam is gay and my laptop is being Homophobic witch really isnt very nice is it I have tried everything I am good with comps but its baffling me I asked my computer geek friend to have a look and they just did what i did so i was quite shocked really ha Yet again its late the past 4 days i have no been to bed at a reasonable time at all the earlist i think is 2 in the morning shocker!!! ( I so can not spell) Its because I am all on my tod i cant sleep very well in the house on my own :¬( Even Tom's out having fun! woe is me...... That be Tom at the top anyways I best go... Night.

Well I am on my own tonight :o( I stayed at Jamie's last night we went for a meal again at the green man yay! haha we were very full.... and to day we went to the Jug and Bottle! Well when i woke up this morning Jamie was saying that all night i was breathing really strange the way he put it it was like i was squeaking or somthing similer well he has nicked named me Darf ( after darf vader Oh course)..... But I dont know if he is telling the truth there is no evidence to prove otherwise....... Oh well..... Well I still havent got my cam to work yet :oS but I will i need to because i want to upload thos vids......... since then I havent done tomuch... my Brother text me tosay that he is watching Jack Black live! anyways i best be of bye....

Oh i rang Sam this evening and when I asked him what he was up to it only turns out he was at the airport! he is going to see his wife for 9 weeks and he didnt even tell me he was going!!!!! SHOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! End...

2:30am Blog about nothing

Well I gave Jamie his t-shirt he says he likes it but he already has a Queen Top so he recons we should try and give it t Brain May ha how funny well not the best photos of it but hey and not the best modle ever :oP... Well Jamie has just randomly text me he has his breake at 1am and it said " Sweet dreams Darling I love you" awww how sweet is that.... Well Tom is laid behind me on my bed ( i am sat on the floor) He just streched his legs and kicked me! Cheecky Monkey..... Well I have been at Jamie's since Sunday he has had work thoe so i have been staying up all night then going to bed with him when he gets in from work in the morning Funess i think thats why I am not terribley tierd at the moment and its like 2:30 in the morning! Not much has happend other than that TBH Went for a meal last night at the Green Man In Stallingbrough was nice and not terrible expensive going again on thrusday.... Jamie wants to walk to he can drink he isnt at work then...... I think i am getting a little bit tired now so i might get in to bed if i can move Thomas.... I rang Sam on saturday but he didnt want to talk so i put the phone down and havent spoke to him since if he wants to talk he knows where i am he is a big gay bear thats all i can say about the matter tbh..... Tomorow I will get my Vid cam to work on my laptop again i will spend all day doing it if i have to because I need to upload this vids!!!!! anyways i best be of am getting a head ach think i must be tierd.... " Come as you are..." bye.

OOO cleaning and Hoovering....

Well today I Hooverd the kitchen and the hallway and cleaned the work tops... I cooked some Taglitaile (cant spell) and Rang Jamie...... and tonight i might just hoover my bedroom. I have some vids to upload but for some unknown reason my laptop want accept my vid cam anymore its GAY!!!! I was going to take a walk up to Lidils to buy a few bits but I couldnt be botherd in the end so I will go tomorow.... I rang Sam again and he wouldn't Answer then he put the phone down on me so I knew he was there!!! ment to be my best friend its a joke!... I saw Andy yesterday went to boys to get stuff for a t-shirt i am making for Jamie ( he doesnt know what it is yet) Andy recons I should sell thm.... He told me he is getting Married next year!!!! Wohh but he is like 25 but he hasnt been with his girlfriend long tbh but if he is happy thats all that matters really :o).... I took some Photos of Jamie in his Hot tub and i messed with his hair ha..... what a hunk... I just like taking photos of him and random vids am obbsessed tbh :OP Anyways bye.

Well I am better now got over my illness.... Although I do have a sore eye and a lil bit of tummy ache.... Well I know it has been a while since i posted anything on here and I dont even think any one but me reads this stuff haha...... Well its been my birthay 16/7... And well Bless Jamie He gave me 50 Pound and a box with a love heart he had drawn on and inside was a filefax ( spelt right) a bag a cd wallet a electric spell checker a sliver pen and keyring set :o) We went to Hull for the day and the night before we went out in to town yay!..... I love the guys lots......... So that means I am now 22 years young!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well I rang Sam yday to see if that after work he wanted to go to town so he said he would ring me to let me know so I headed in to town anyways and he never rang me so I rang him and he said he didnt feel up to it that he wanted to go to bed because he had been at work He lied he was with his other mates!!!! How dare he I officaly cross him off my Christmas card list the lieing toad he is always telling me lies........ On friday I took Tom to stay with me at Jamies house because i didnt want him to be alone bless him he didnt think much to Jamies Cat he really didnt because she is young and Tom is an old man now all he wanted to do was just lay quitely on the sofa bless........ Hopefuly I will get my Laptop to accept my vid cam again then I can upload my new vids to my youtube page oh well.... :o)

Hey folks,

Well I have been off work today as I was sent home yesterday due to illness.... So to take my mind of the fact that i cant eat and I keep feeling sick I went for a walk * Yay FUN* on the way back i fell over * well least i think i did i dont acctualy know one minute i was walking the next i was on the floor* and my best jeans got rip on the knee :o( and i hurt my leg :o( but i got up and i walked home! but my knee still hurts Oh well.... Its Jamie's birthday tomorow and i think I went a bit crazy on the old Presant front :oS.... I Guesse i can say what i have brought him as i dout he will read this before tomorow.... A pair of Boxfresh trainers..... A jacket.... A shirt... two t-shirts... a big badge.... hair clippers and a Map because he gets lost in his car hehe I also got him the coolist gift box ever it has a pirat ship and pirats on it! and the wrapping paper * beacuse it all wouldnt fit in the box* Had cartoon aliens on so grown up its unreal ha thats the bugger lugs at the top there he is proper smelly Weirdo :oP Ne ways i think i might try and get some sleep I know its early but am ill and need rest..... bye folks.